I wish that I could just fully let go
I wish that those words you sent me had made me angry
Or built up some bitterness inside
So I could use it as a crutch and push off the feelings of sadness for just a bit longer
But it hit me like a ton of bricks
And I’m still off balance from it
I should never have let myself think it could really happen
I should never have thought that I had a chance with you
I should never have told you my hopes and dreams
I should have known what would happen if I got close to you
Just like everyone else that has gotten close to you
Hell, you even told me what happens to people who get too close
Why did I ever think I would be any different
But even after all this
I’m not angry
Not even sad
Just empty and disappointed
A million fish in the sea, yes
But only one you
And I can’t have you